02.20.03
Last night my brother is rear-ended by 3 drunk "gangsta's" nearly totalling their new white Mercedes. When the cops arrive, they claim the driver "ran away". Uh, yeah right. So, after a half an hour or so of drunk mumbling they admit there wasn't a 4th driver. But, they won't admit who was driving. The cop explains to my brother that he can't give any of the 3 obviously drunk guys a breathalyzer test because that would be "unlawful search". So, they get off with merely a ticket for the rear ending (who did they decide to give that ticket too?).
Glad to see Colorado is tough on drunk driving. Moral is, never drunk drive alone, or if you are caught, just say the driver ran away as you hop into the passenger seat.

I think he should call the local TV station. That would be fun.

02.17.03
I'm obsessed.
I'm currently using my crest whitestrips for the first time. I have to keep them on for 30 minutes, 18 to go.
I'm now constantly staring at people's teeth and I've realized that there are now only two kinds of people. People who whiten their teeth and those who don't. It used to be that there was a gradual transition between people with discolored teeth and those with white teeth, the transition was smooth enough that in a group of people, you could notice a variance perhaps, but it was subtle. Now, the whiteners teeth are so white you can't help but notice those of us that haven't quite gotten there yet. We went from 256 shades of gray to 1 bit black and white.
Start looking at people's teeth. Trust me. Go to Costco and purchase the kit. You really have no choice anymore, you have to whiten.
14 minutes to go.

02.13.03
Hilarious article on CNN which shows the general stupidity of TV viewers and that CNN is anything but a "news network". My favorite quote:

"No, I will not watch the finale," read a subsequent posting. "Fox has lied to us, and I feel that they should be punished for that. ... Bad move, guys. It will be a while before I put my trust back into Fox."

It's been a while since I've been here. Fun to visit.

02.12.03
I hate to get out of bed in the morning.
I love to sleep.
What does it say about your life if your favorite place to be is in bed?


and the good shepherd
lo he left all the others
an' went to look for you
yes an' he did find thee
an' with bruised hands
he did unbind thee
brought you out
into the light of day
--16hp

02.05.03
I'm waging war against the man.

02.03.03
Sometimes it's hard to bloggify something.
I'm sitting here trying to blog this conversation/analogy that I was involved in a few weeks ago. It had to do with "warning signs" in relationships. How to see them, how to quantify the danger levels and generally what to do with them.
So, warning signs, red flags, flares on the road, whatever. If an ugly break up is the accident around the corner, what's the red flag? Problem is, if you take a little red flag and look at it out of context, it seems pretty harmless. No big deal, just a flag. But, in the context of highway 1 at night in the rain, you pay attention because around the corner there's probably a semi turned over. How do you find that context in a relationship? Or, to steal a phrase, when is a flag just a flag?

01.31.03
As predicted/promised/mentioned was the plan, I bought some Crest Whitening strips. About 2 weeks ago. Except I haven't used them yet. Why? Don't know. Perhaps change is harder than even I think.

01.30.03
I spend a lot of time in bars.
I see a lot of live music.
I've never seen anything as weird as the theremin.
Don't look at just this link, do a google search .

I want it to be crazy amazing, not just amazing. A bouquet not a bunch. Massive not huge. And then in the old folks home with pills red green blue white under the bed nurses yelling "Mr. Hansen" not knowing that's what I've been looking for my whole life. Dried spittle white in the corners of my mouth twisting upward in a grin. The last days will be exactly these days the candy coating just changes.

------

excerpted from Sau Paulo by Morcheeba

Another stain on my passport
I wanna travel so futuristically
I just wish I could beam up, team up
And soon be on my way

You told me we'd go to Rio
And you said it so charismatically
I know it's me that's the nightmare
So fight fair or have some decency

Sao Paulo
Why am I bringing me down?
Sao Paulo
If I drink any more I will drown
Sao Paulo
Why can't I fight truth decay?
Sao Paulo
My life is just one big cliche

the rest

01.26.03
Interesting topic.

01.24.03
On the cold medicine I've been taking:

"If you consume 3 or more alcoholic drinks every day, ask your doctor whether you should take acetaminophen. Acetaminophen may cause liver damage."

I'm thinking if you have 3 drinks a day, every day, you're probably not that concerned about your liver.

Fly UI.

01.15.03
Henry Rollins in a recent interview:

Yep.

01.14.03
Passing two drunks carrying my bike up a dark stairway,

"I know the game man, I was in Vietnam!"

One can only wonder.

One 8 year old bursting with pride at his motorized scooter to another,

"you want to take a ride?"
"No bitch, it go too fast!"

It wasn't the language that got me, it was the fact that this kid was scared of a little scooter. What happened to youthful immortality?

01.13.03
Everyone should go to Tikal.

Rode my bike to work this morning. Forgot how much I enjoyed that.

In the last month or so I've had the following things said to me:

"You're a cheesy slut"
"You look like a street bum"
"You've lost your edge"
"Your teeth could use some whitening"

When does one re-evalute one's life? When do you decide it's time to change paths and screw all that "less traveled by" stuff? All I know is I just added Crest whitening strips to my shopping list....

01.08.03
The economy has GOT to get better.
Home Depot not being open 24 hours a day anymore is really cutting in to my midnight house projects.

01.06.03
quote:

"Bloggers are navel-gazers," said Elizabeth Osder, a visiting professor at The University of Southern California's School of Journalism. "And they're about as interesting as friends who make you look at their scrap books."

end quote.

Now if you'll look here < turning scrap book page >, you'll see this was my "struggling with past period", see the picture of me in college? ...

01.03.03
Cleaning shelves in my house yesterday. Found a bullet that had been left and then painted over next to an unexposed Polaroid. Ah, if walls could talk.

01.02.03
Number sequences are fun.

12.16.02
Holiday season. Nothing but cheer.
Family. Growing old. Kids. Who else takes care of you?

Thinking about validation again. 6 months in central america reminded me it's not a good idea to get it from your job. I think it was a good lesson. OK, so where? I probably try to get too much from women. Probably a result of some insecure past. Doesn't that sound all psycho-babbly and fun? "insecure past"...

11.30.02
(blank)

11.15.02
In the parking garage; a porsche boxster with a car seat. Talk about holding on to both lives.

11.08.02
When squirrels attack, and Barbara Streisand lies.

10.27.02
Top 3 issues that seem to end my relationships:

1. Religion
2. Sex
3. House projects

10.26.02
The answer, Rachel, is simple: love the band (quietly) and smugly comment how you heard of them first every time they come up.

And I question if cheeto's can even be considered in the food category, let alone the chip category.

10.25.02
Is it considered an anger problem if you quietly fantasize about beating your enemies to a bloody pulp? Or is that just a good catharsis?

10.22.02
Have you ever been on your way to the bathroom, and I mean really on your way, and had about 3 people stop you to talk about "really important stuff"?

Earlier:

"Don't ride your bike to work today"
"Why? Because of the sniper?"
"uh...no, it's supposed to snow."

Another in a line of conversations that shouldn't happen.

10.21.02
blognesia: n. The state of being unable to recall the great idea you had for your blog last night while you were away from your computer.

10.11.02
I realized, as I thrashed about in the pool at my local rec center, that swimming provides me with many of the same obstacles as dancing. Mostly it's about rhythm I guess. I can paddle with my hands, or kick with my feet, or get my breathing right, but all 3 at the same time? Not a chance. After the 4th lap I realized that I wasn't even kicking at all, just dragging my legs behind me as I clawed at the water and tried to breathe on every third stroke.

10.03.02
The spiral begins.

10.02.02
It's officially Rocktober.

A younger friend of mine told me "I'm too old for those crazy rock and roll concerts. Somebody might knock me over and break my hip."

10.01.02
The internet is broken. At least a part of it. The part I use all the time. google.

I noticed this last week when I did a search and all the returns were blogs. Nothing useful about the search topic, just people talking about it. CNN wrote an article about it but they missed the point. It's blogs that are killing google because at root they are linkers. Google better fix it, or I'll be back to, shudder, Alta Vista.

09.27.02
Sometimes I drive without a seatbelt.

09.24.02
In the dentist chair, the dentist trying to minimize the horrific crack in my front tooth says "move into the light so I can see it"
"What?!" I'm indignant. "It's like the freaking Grand Canyon, you can't see it?"
The dental assistant looks at me and I can tell she's thinking "have you looked in the mirror lately? You've got a birthmark as big as my hand on it. How can you be worried about a little crack on your tooth?".
I guess we just get used to what's there. Beauty is so subjective.

So fixing a cracked tooth isn't unlike tile work. Dentist uses diamond blade wet saw to cut tooth down the crack line. Now my tooth is like 2 pieces of tile. Next step, the grout. Using tooth-colored grout (I didn't see that at home depot when I was picking colors) he fills it in. Uses a Xenon Arc ray or some such madness to harden the grout. Finishes by grinding and polishing. Basically the same steps - minus the arc ray. Who knew finishing my bathroom also trained me as a dentist?

09.23.02
You know you must be too vain when God strikes you down and cracks your front tooth.

09.22.02
My neighbor asked me if I was a Christian. For the first time in my life I felt like a liar when I said, "Yes".

Who was it that just told me that Karaoke is knowing what it's like to take a shower with someone.

09.20.02
You either like broccoli or you don't right? Is it possible to take a non-broccoli lover and turn them into a broccoli addict? If so, how is it done? Make them eat it all the time? Associate it with other positive things? "You can only have cheese with broccoli"?

Changing a person just seems really, really difficult. And probably shouldn't be attempted.

09.19.02
My girlfriend says I'm too guarded on my site.
Can you say "no-win situation"?

She likes my friend's site better.

09.18.02
I love a good tattoo.

09.17.02
I use a credit card to pay for gas. I use Quicken to balance my checkbook. Both of these things mean I never have to provide exact change at the gas-o-mart and I never have to do simple checkbook math.
Why then, do I insist on putting in $11.00 of gas instead of just letting it stay at $10.86?

It's fun to type words that only require use of one hand. You know, like 'opinion'. Of course there is a web site about this. Figures.

09.16.02
Depressed economy; entertainment spending increases.
Drug use increases.

Denver's crime is increasing at a noticeable rate. This sucks. There are a few factors that I think are influencing it including change in prostitution laws in Texas, local law enforcement budget cuts, the economy etc.

It's my opinion that the budget cuts in the police force have a "tipping point" effect. I think the police get to the point where they think things like "fine, let it get bad, if it gets bad enough, we'll get our budget back". I think that's where we are now, in a state where the cops are letting it get bad, bad enough that someone important will scream. The difficult part is figuring out how to trigger that scream.

09.12.02
Have you seen the Subaru baja? I'm telling you, el camino's are coming back....

I've come to the conclusion that practical intelligence is all about memory. The better your memory, the smarter you are. It's that simple.

Sleater-kinney rocked the bluebird last night. Saw a lot of Le Tigre t-shirts on angry rock girls. It seems like the really angry rock girls are about 5'2" and 97 pounds.

09.05.02
The cop says to me, "this is a serious offence" and hands me a ticket.
No.
Murder, rape, robbery, that's serious. Drunk driving is serious, heroin in the alley is serious.
Forgetting to renew your license plate? Not serious.

08.23.02
State of things:
Age: 31
Occupation: Software job
Time sink: old house
Relational: girlfriend

Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be enmeshed in a whole family environment, to go camping, have kids, and all the rest.

Sometimes I think I never want that.

Sometimes I think that's a defense mechanism.

Sometimes I think I'm just afraid of change.

08.19.02
Here's a fun thing to say if you have a friend named Todd:
"Todd, oh yeah, I know Todd, big T little odd".

08.15.02
Where I work we try to apply Wabi Sabi principles. It's a Japanese minimalist aesthetic that basically says 'when you can take nothing else away, it's done'. Kind of cool. Good for my packrat soul, I need to get a little more wabi sabi into my house.

Most of the offices in my building are law firms. Parking in the parking garage teaches you something. Lawyers make too much money.

08.14.02
I really hoped that after a month or so of returning from Central America my digestive system would have returned to normal. Nope. I'm a completely different person than I used to be.

08.13.02
Remember when making that hand sign where you hold your middle finger and next finger to your palm and your pointer finger, thumb and pinky are all out used to be a sign of devil music?

7th Grade. Shop Class. The magic of a 4 stroke engine has just been explained to me (intake, compression, power, exhaust) and I'm trying to assemble a briggs and stratton 4hp lawnmower engine. Karl walks up to me. Karl is about 6 feet tall, wearing a Quiet Riot t-shirt (he had 4 of them, on Friday he wore his favorite one again) puts his hands around my throat as if to choke me but instead lifts me off the ground. Lovely. 'This is so fun' I think as I'm dangling by my jaw.
After he sets me down, he and his friends all exchange the "sign". Yeah, rock on.

Last night I went and saw Stavesacre at the Gothic. It was a great show. Lots of audience members making the "sign". Funny how things change.

08.12.02
Sanding wood floors is a lot of work. It's been just long enough since I did it last time that a) I forgot that I swore to never do it again and b) I remember how to do it, but forgot all the tips I said, "if I ever have to do this again, I've got to do x" about.

08.09.02
When I started the recent house remodel project I figured I'd be writing about it a lot up here. Turns out it generally frustrates me so much that I just leave it at home - or at the house at least. Well, that and take it out on anyone within a five foot radius of me.

Latest nightmare has been trying to install the clawfoot tub. Amazing how difficult it is to get all the supply lines, drain lines etc. to line up. My big defeat was to break down and use some ugly shut off valves - even though no one will ever see them as they are hidden by the tub/shower curtain, etc. etc. Never realized my perfectionist side so much.

08.08.02
"More good is caused by evil than by good" says Dr. Bronner from his Peppermint soap label. Hmmm...is that kind of like, "sin so grace may increase?" (ref.).
That being said, try the peppermint soap, it makes you feel all tingly which is just good shower fun.

I recently got a corporate credit card. That pretty much nails the coffin in the "am I corporate or not" discussion. I mean I have a card that has both "corporate" and my name on it. It reminded me somehow of my dad driving up in his cream colored Oldsmobile company car. Not sure what that's all about.
And no, I haven't used it yet.

I've been drinking a lot of Dasani (Coke) water lately. The label kills me, "Dasani is filtered for purity, using state of the art treatment by reverse osmosis, and enhanced with minerals for a pure, fresh taste. Dasani is water - pure and essential."
Uh...yeah, so basically, we take this old dirty stream water, do a ton of filtering on it, then inject some dirt into it, and sell it to you as "pure" water. Bizarre. I prefer bottled water with the little pictures on the label, you know the one with the volcano showing rain falling, being filtered by the hillside and finally collected at some natural spring at the base.

More fluids. I just tried Amp by Mountain Dew (Pepsi). It's another in the Red Bull vein, you know those 'energy' drinks in small thin cans that cost $2 or more. It's awful. But that's part of the point, make each energy drink taste like nothing else, and after several tries you're addicted to that particular brand. Following the "it takes 10 tries for an adult to acquire a taste for a new food" rule.
I'm addicted to Red Bull. Blue Ox is my least favorite. But that's probably because I recently tried the Black Cherry variant.

08.07.02
Watching parents with small children last night. It was interesting to see how much attention they gave them - makes sense right? They're like kittens, cute and cuddly. I was imagining what the world would be like if parents continued to give that much time/affection to kids as they got older. Probably pretty freaky.

Craving chocolate and sleep. Probably a bad mental health indicator.

08.05.02
Current car list:
67 Dodge Coronet Convertible
El Camino
1975 Ford Bronco

08.01.02
Sure, I want the Dr. No watch from the Swatch James Bond collection, but do I really need it? Will it make me a better person?

You know, it's hard being 18 when you're 31. This past week I've been staying up late, going out, getting up early for work. Last night I crashed, I actually had to take a nap, I couldn't handle it anymore. Age.

07.31.02
Went and saw The Vines last night at the Bluebird. The lead singer so desparately wants to be cool. He was full of all kinds of rock star shennanigans complete with knocking over the drum set with his guitar.
My guess is this tour will be their last opportunity for such antics.

Oh, that reminds me, I saw Woven Hand last Friday. You know, songs too religious and depressing for 16 Horsepower to play....

07.30.02
78 people die in airshow accident. Come on, haven't you learned by now you just don't go to airshows? It's like buying a trailer in Kansas or Florida.

07.26.02
New York City

On shopping:
SoHo, NoHo, Canal, Uptown, Midtown even Downtown. Ridiculous I think. I'm both enthralled and disgusted. I can't pull myself away from the ridiculous SoHo shops with under 20 items in the entire store. Each shirt priced more than I've ever paid for an automobile. Reaquainted with the age old concept of status through clothing and accessories. If you're a man and don't have a Tag Heuer watch, you just aren't much of a man. Oh yeah, and white is very very in. And all those big chunky black shoes I like so much? I better get all my use out of them quickly, seems like lighter thinner smaller is all the rage.

On food:
Though chastised for the amount of pizza I inhaled, I couldn't help it. It's just good pizza. And fresh mozzarella cheese on everything....

On the subway:
Hot. Very, very hot in July.

On chain stores:
My main disappointment? The infusion of giant chains into Manhattan. A Starbucks on every corner, a Duane Reade pharmacy, a Gap, a JCrew. Even in the short 3 years since I've been there I was shocked at the disappearance of the unique corner shop. One of my favorite things about NYC was always that every city block was unique with it's own deli, boutique shops etc. Soon I might as well be in a Kansas strip mall, very disappointing. New Yorker's may be loving their Starbuck triple grande latte's now, but in a few years they'll all be bemoaning the fact that now their city is just like anywhere USA - and suburbia USA at that. This made enough of an impact on me that I'm going to try and boycott chains in Denver. It's really going to be rough avoiding Target and Chipotle though...wish me luck.

On architecture:
"Well at least you get architecture in NYC" she says. Not for long. The continuing razing of the Times Square area (anyone remember the concorde?), the shrinking of Little Italy and the expansion of China Town. It's all changing. Where's the New York preservation society? Doesn't someone realize the value of old buildings? Even the Washington Arch is in complete disrepair and, according to a "NY buildings" card set, is "awaiting funds for restoration". I'm telling you, only a few Best Buys away from Suburbia.

On tile work:
OK. Admittedly, tile is a fixation of mine since working on my bathroom. The guys that did the 1" tile station names in the subways? Geniuses. I tip my hat to them. Freaking amazing.

On the Twin Towers:
Hard not for it to freak you out. A massive hole. That eerie cross i-beam. The park across the street with all the t-shirts. The neighboring buildings covered in drapes. I still don't understand how the nearby buildings survived with so little damage. The whole thing is mystifying, they weren't supposed to just fall like that. The rebuilding plans? All six of them suck. I may not be a New Yorker, but I'm an American and that gives me the right to say that. For some reason my gut reacted to them, they all seemed so small and sheepish. For the longest time I couldn't decide whether they should just make it a memorial park or rebuild even bigger buildings. When I saw the hole my gut told me how I felt. Rebuild even bigger and more amazing. Fuck you Osama.

On Manhattan hospitals:
Living an episode of ER as we're wheeled out of our ER station to make room for the incoming stab victim. A woman from behind stabbed him multiple times his friend says. Yeah, right I'm thinking. The door opens as nurses and doctors run in and out and he's looking right at me, the whites of his eyes as big as my fist, with fear pouring out as fast as the blood. Only a short hour later and he's rapping with his "homies" about what a bad ass he is. How soon we forget fear. Hospitals aren't about getting you better, they're moneymaking machines. Stall a day, watch the income rise, "oh, we should keep an eye on you for a few more days" more money. Nurses that can't be bothered, young doctors trying to convince you of how cool they are rather than their competency. Bizarre. The path to recovery starts as you exit the hospital.

On being stuck in the hospital rather than enjoying one of the most amazing cities on earth:
Well, at least she was on the 10th floor and had a window bed.

On MacWorld:
Whatever you or I want to say about Apple, their hardware is just pretty. It makes you feel like you want to use a computer. It's like you're taking part in an art installation. Don't believe me, just look at a 23" cinema display or move the screen on one of those new 17" iMacs and watch how it stays exactly where you place it. I wish PC manufacturers would get a clue, so many of us look at our computers all day long, it would be nice to have something cool to look at. Oh yeah, and check out SixDegrees, you'll like it. You want it. Buy it.

In summary:
I'd still love to try living there.

07.11.02
How do you respond when someone says they won't come to your parties because "all your friends are Yuppies"? I think I should be a little hurt...

Want to find out if you're hot or not? Go check out the Marquardt Beauty Analysis site and then download the template and see if your face matches up to the golden mean of beauty.

07.10.02
I've been riding my bike to work, I can have a donut - right?

07.08.02
You're never too old to learn stuff about yourself. Last night I spent a long time by myself cutting little rubber spacers off of one inch tiles. My hands haven't hurt that bad since throwing salmon into pans in Alaska. It's brain dead enough work that your mind can wander all over the place - and mine did.

I've noticed that I like to keep really busy. It's not enough to have a day job, I work on a house at night, I'm always trying to fill my time with some project or thing. I'm starting to think I do this just to avoid times like last night all alone with myself cutting tile. Pretty hard to introspect, evaluate and consider when you're super busy.

07.01.02
I'm the kind of guy who makes fun of Abercrombie and Fitch. If you know me, easy enough to figure out why - heck, the $65 pricetag on shorts is enough. So last night through a long series of events I come into posession of a large amount of Abercrombie gear - shorts mostly. So what do I do with this clothing that I've openly ridiculed now that I have it?
Wear it of course, it was free. Plus, I look good in the green pair...

06.27.02
Is using the handicap stall in the bathroom like parking in a handicap space?

06.19.02
A friend showed me ReadyMade mag the other day and claimed "we're a demographic!"

06.18.02
Speakerphones. Love to be on one side, hate the other.

06.13.02
I don't want to be the guy that's dressed just like my girlfriend.
I don't want to be the guy sitting at a resturant with kids I'm only allowed to see on weekends.
I don't want to be the guy in last decade's outfit.
I don't want to be the guy that starts every sentence with "well back when I was ..."
I don't want to be the guy that still has to be working at 64 and a half.
I don't want to be the guy without a family at 46.

06.12.02
"If you can hear a piano fall, you can hear me coming down the hall" - White Stripes.

06.05.02
With all apologies to my friend Jeremiah, the death of telcom can't come too soon.
My bro says "doesn't it seem like the whole telcom transaction comes off as 'sign a contract and give us your money and we'll help you' and then they spend the next year screwing you over."

I just hope the death takes the blue sign with it...

06.02.02
My dad has a theory that the best bread can be found in the poorest country. He also has a theory that if you don't directly produce anything useful in your job, it's probably meaningless.
I don't produce anything at my job and neither does he.

05.22.02
The 15th st. tavern has this new 'program' they call "Rock n Roll Happy Hours" that's described as a solution to patrons complaining that their "weeknight shows can be trying if one has an early day job."

It's time to get out of punk rock, when you want to see shows when it's still light outside.

05.21.02
Prejudice.
If you have a southern accent you must be stupid.
If you come in late to work, you must be lazy.

05.17.02
I work in an fancy-dancy bank building that consists mostly of law offices. Riding up the elevators in the morning unshaven in faded jeans I hum quietly 'which one of these kids is not like the others' to the supreme irritation of the 3 piece suits I'm surrounded by. But here's the thing. You'd think educated adults in such a building as this would flush the urinals when they're done - wouldn't you? I mean, at the 15th st. tavern at the end of a night, perhaps, but in a clean downtown office? What gives?

03.07.02
It's amazing how important food is in a relationship. It's important that you eat when one is hungry to avoid those "I'm just hungry" fights, important who cooks, who cleans who shops and, perhaps most important, what foods you like.

I like pizza, she could take it or leave it. She loves fish, sweat beads of nausea form on my forehead when I smell it. I could eat pasta and bread every day, twice a month seems a lot to her. I like spicy, she doesn't. I enjoy rice, but for breakfast?

03.01.02
Timing is everything. How many times have we heard that? It is amazing how often it's true. Trying to catch a wave and stand on a surfboard, that's all timing. Music and dancing, they tell me, is all timing. That girl I dated, if only the timing was better. If I would have known at the time I would a have done the 30 year instead of the 15 (more time) loan. I feel like I'm in a crucible fired by time right now. How much time until I understand Spanish? How much time until my money runs out? How long can I put off that job opportunity?

Speaking of time (wasting) I have a tv where I live for the first time in ... well ... 28 years. Sure there was that summer my parents rented, the times I borrowed my brothers and so on, it's not like I've never seen tv, it's just for the first time it's an accepted piece of furniture. I didn't buy it, that explains a lot (Rachel you understand). My theory was that it would help me learn Spanish and somehow that made it acceptable to me. Truth is, the first week or so I just sat glued to dumb American shows ignoring, for the most part, all the subtitles. Now it's off because it just gives me a headache. TV, it still doesn't seem worthwhile to me.

02.28.02
Watching the news just makes me mad. No wonder I've resisted watching it for so long.

The longer I don't have a 'proper' job, the harder it is to imagine going back to one. I keep having the 'I don't want to work' battle with myself. It's not that I don't want to work, it's just the idea of slaving for someone else for little pay and high frustration doesn't seem that appealing. Of course, doesn't everyone feel that way? No wonder so many people start their own business - and what's the fail rate on that? Pretty high as I understand it. Still, the temptations is huge.

02.27.02
I'm being forced to watch the grammy's right now. And you know what? I don't think I'll ever buy another CD again from a major record label. Ever. And I hope other people have the same reaction. I just listened to some industry idiot spiel about the horrors of "illegal downloading" of music. First off, the record companies don't create music and no, they don't love you either and second, what the idiots don't realize is that album sales INCREASE because of the ability to download songs. ARGH.

Go buy a cd burner today. Then go to your favorite mp3 download site and grab as much as possble.

And let's hope the internet allows more bands to follow Ani Difranco's example.

I'd rather be watching Los Expedientes Secretos X.

02.23.02
What kind of country sells BMW's but doesn't allow you to flush toilet paper?

02.22.02
Have you ever woken up with someone really on your mind. Not like you were dreaming about them exactly, almost like they woke you up with some force of their mind. Makes me wonder if there are connections we know nothing of - or whatever I ate last night was bugging me.

02.21.02
It's not like I haven't been thinking about it.
It's crazy the things I've been thinking about. I thought about John Jones IV the other night for a long time. Wonder what he's up to? If anyone knows how to get in touch with him...last I heard he was a Wheaton graduate with a Master's in something. I'm guessing he's a Ph.d. by now. Wonder if he's had to make that decision of naming his kid the 5th yet?

02202002
Notice the date today? Jeff Boyd - did you write a poem? I sure hope so.

Poetry. Haven't thought about that in a while.

Tried an experiment the other night. Tried to write a short story. Too funny. It ended up sounding like some ridiculous travelogue that you'd read on a plane - low budget airline at that. Not exactly what I was going for. Funny how it's so easy to believe/imagine that you can do something but then when you actually try it ... different story. Kind of like me looking at metal furniture in stores and saying, "I could build that". I think I have a lot of things like that.